August wrap-up, favourites and other

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Dear reader,

I know that once again, I disappeared from my blog. For once, I do have an explanation for it: I finished my thesis! At the beggining of the summer I really thought that I could do it all: read, blog and write my thesis. Well, I was wrong and I had to take two weeks of vacations to work on it properly. It was hard, there were moments I thought I couldn’t do it but as it was my main goal for the month I pushed myself and did it. As I am writing this I only have to add some corrections and I’ll be able to hand it back in a week.

But since we are not here to only talk about my thesis, let’s go back to August and see what I read and loved!

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Wrapping up YALC 2018

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Dear reader,

If you don’t know, I left for London two weeks ago to go to YALC, a book fair taking place at the London Comic Con. It has been one of my dreams for years to go to an international book fair as I only read in English and when I first heard of YALC last year I promised myself that in 2018 I would go – and look, I did it!

I still can’t believe that it’s now over and that I really went there – it was such a crazy experience and I can’t wait to do it all over again next year. Of course I took many pictures while I was there and even though I already posted my vlog on my IGTV I decided to wrap it up here as well! Without further ado, let’s jump right into my wrap-up of YALC 2018.

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July wrap-up, favourites and other

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Dear reader,

Surprisingly, July has been a great month. It had its down times, I am still grieving but I also did a lot of things and had so much fun. I started reading again, I finally worked a lot on my thesis and am actually proud of what I’m doing and started going out again, well not partying but seeing my friends, going to the movies and to Disneyland. I also went back to London during July and went to YALC, and it was all a dream. I am very proud of all the progress I made because I was still sad and anxious but I can feel myself changing and improving nonetheless.

Without further ado, let’s go back to July and see what I read and loved!

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June wrap-up, favourites and other

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Dear reader,

June has been a very weird month. I spent three weeks at the hospital for my eating disorder, and they wanted to keep me for another one because I wasn’t getting better but I decided to go out anyway. I also lost my grand-mother while I was there, who I used to see every day and who I loved more than anything, and it was all a nightmare. However, I am still determined to get better and to take care of myself. I have tons of new ideas for this blog and I have to say that I missed blogging a lot while I was away!

July is supposed to be a better month as I am leaving for London on the 26th for YALC, an English book fair. I just can’t wait to go back to this city which I adore and which always makes me feel at home. Despite all the bad things that have happened, I’m really trying to make the most of the second part of 2018.

But anyway, let’s wrap-up June!

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May wrap-up, favourites and other

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Dear reader,

Look at me posting my May wrap-up perfectly on time this time. Honestly, May has been a roller-coaster. You may have noticed or not, but 2018 has been… Well, hell for me. It started well but ever since February, the anxiety and depression consumed me once again and I fall back into everything that I once was, this extremely sad and angry girl who couldn’t spend a day without getting hurt. May has been… worse than all of that. It hasn’t been as bad as it could have been, but it was honestly awful to live in my head. I was exhausted and had no will to get out of bed. I was angry all the time, always at something or at someone, and I could feel the pain inside my chest. I was sad and couldn’t even put myself to do something to cheer me up. I started complaining on the Internet again, I got mad at some of my friends, I stopped going out, watching tv shows, reading, writing, working on my Instagram and blog. I then went to Vienna with my school, which terrified me. I woke up and sobbed for 30 minutes because of how stressed and sad I was. I’d lie if I said I didn’t think about death those past few weeks, those past few months…

But then I came back, and something changed. While in Vienna, I took some risks, went out alone, talked to other people than my friends, went to night club, expressed my feelings and more. It really did something to me. I came home ready to get better, and I started to do everything in order to succeed. Just like after my suicidal attempt when I was 18, it felt like a slap in my face and I started to see the world clearer. As if I was drowning the entire time and that I was finally getting my head out of the water. I’m not saying I am healed and I don’t want to say that I feel amazing (even though I do, a little bit), but I know that I survived the first half of 2018 and that the second one will be incredible. I am ready to go to the hospital in a few days to get the keys to deal with my eating disorder, ready to push myself to enjoy life, ready to start living my adult life as soon as I’ll be done with master degree in a few months and to simply be happy.

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April wrap-up, favourites and other

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Dear reader,

Okay, I know. I suck at blogging. It’s not even that I suck, it’s just that everything went bad in those first few weeks of May and I couldn’t even put myself to sit down to post something. But! that’s something you’ll know more of in my May wrap-up. (I promise this one won’t be that late.) Anyway, here is what I have written for April but never posted:

April seems to have last forever and I am really glad to see it over now. It was neither a good or bad month, but I have hope for the future and I’m sure that everything will fall into place soon. Many things happened during this month: I went to the movies, my dad ran a marathon, I hosted a 24h readathon, I went to the French premiere of Love, Simon, I saw Infinity War three times (and cried every time), I worked on my thesis and finally have faith for it and I studied harder than ever. I also read a lot, listened to a lot of music, got drunk with my best friend like the old time, watched some tv shows and way too many Tom’s interviews. It really lasted forever, and I am ready for May to take its place.

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