Three tv shows to binge watch this winter ๐ŸŽžโ„๏ธ

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Dear reader,

I am back with another one of my blog post series, the one where I recommend you several tv show to binge watch for the season! For some reasons I wasn’t totally inspired by winter (or maybe it’s because I don’t watch anything at the moment) so I decided to go with three different tv shows instead of five.

Therefor I give you three tv shows to binge watch this winter!

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May wrap-up, favourites and other

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Dear reader,

Look at me posting my May wrap-up perfectly on time this time. Honestly, May has been a roller-coaster.ย You may have noticed or not, but 2018 has been… Well, hell for me. It started well but ever since February, the anxiety and depression consumed me once again and I fall back into everything that I once was, this extremely sad and angry girl who couldnโ€™t spend a day without getting hurt. May has beenโ€ฆ worse than all of that. It hasnโ€™t been as bad as it could have been, but it was honestly awful to live in my head. I was exhausted and had no will to get out of bed. I was angry all the time, always at something or at someone, and I could feel the pain inside my chest. I was sad and couldnโ€™t even put myself to do something to cheer me up. I started complaining on the Internet again, I got mad at some of my friends, I stopped going out, watching tv shows, reading, writing, working on my Instagram and blog. I then went to Vienna with my school, which terrified me. I woke up and sobbed for 30 minutes because of how stressed and sad I was. Iโ€™d lie if I said I didnโ€™t think about death those past few weeks, those past few monthsโ€ฆ

But then I came back, and something changed. While in Vienna, I took some risks, went out alone, talked to other people than my friends, went to night club, expressed my feelings and more. It really did something to me. I came home ready to get better, and I started to do everything in order to succeed. Just like after my suicidal attempt when I was 18, it felt like a slap in my face and I started to see the world clearer. As if I was drowning the entire time and that I was finally getting my head out of the water. Iโ€™m not saying I am healed and I donโ€™t want to say that I feel amazing (even though I do, a little bit), but I know that I survived the first half of 2018 and that the second one will be incredible. I am ready to go to the hospital in a few days to get the keys to deal with my eating disorder, ready to push myself to enjoy life, ready to start living my adult life as soon as Iโ€™ll be done with master degree in a few months and to simply be happy.

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