March has been a good month when it comes to myself, but a weird one when it comes to the world. Like many other countries, France is currently in lockdown and have been for more than two weeks. As a teacher I am now asked to work from home. It has been stressful at first, I needed a full weekend to fully comprehend what was happening and what it meant for myself and my family, but in the end I am okay. I developed a new routine, I found out I can teach online and I have been doing new things, such as working out. Overall it has been a great month, and I’m thankful no one in my family is sick.
Anyway, let‘s wrap-up this weird month of March!
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I am officially back, and I missed you all so much!
I had a very busy summer and I’m so glad to be back in my real life, blogging and reading and more. I hope that you all had a great summer and that you are all excited for September, because I AM! This year I’ll be both a student and a teacher (a literature teacher) and it’s all so terrifying but also super exciting for me.
Without further ado, let’s jump right into my summer wrap-up!
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June has been a very weird month. I spent three weeks at the hospital for my eating disorder, and they wanted to keep me for another one because I wasn’t getting better but I decided to go out anyway. I also lost my grand-mother while I was there, who I used to see every day and who I loved more than anything, and it was all a nightmare. However, I am still determined to get better and to take care of myself. I have tons of new ideas for this blog and I have to say that I missed blogging a lot while I was away!
July is supposed to be a better month as I am leaving for London on the 26th for YALC, an English book fair. I just can’t wait to go back to this city which I adore and which always makes me feel at home. Despite all the bad things that have happened, I’m really trying to make the most of the second part of 2018.
But anyway, let’s wrap-up June!
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tw// suicide + depression
Look at me posting my May wrap-up perfectly on time this time. Honestly, May has been a roller-coaster. You may have noticed or not, but 2018 has been… Well, hell for me. It started well but ever since February, the anxiety and depression consumed me once again and I fall back into everything that I once was, this extremely sad and angry girl who couldn’t spend a day without getting hurt. May has been… worse than all of that. It hasn’t been as bad as it could have been, but it was honestly awful to live in my head. I was exhausted and had no will to get out of bed. I was angry all the time, always at something or at someone, and I could feel the pain inside my chest. I was sad and couldn’t even put myself to do something to cheer me up. I started complaining on the Internet again, I got mad at some of my friends, I stopped going out, watching tv shows, reading, writing, working on my Instagram and blog. I then went to Vienna with my school, which terrified me. I woke up and sobbed for 30 minutes because of how stressed and sad I was. I’d lie if I said I didn’t think about death those past few weeks, those past few months…
But then I came back, and something changed. While in Vienna, I took some risks, went out alone, talked to other people than my friends, went to night club, expressed my feelings and more. It really did something to me. I came home ready to get better, and I started to do everything in order to succeed. Just like after my suicidal attempt when I was 18, it felt like a slap in my face and I started to see the world clearer. As if I was drowning the entire time and that I was finally getting my head out of the water. I’m not saying I am healed and I don’t want to say that I feel amazing (even though I do, a little bit), but I know that I survived the first half of 2018 and that the second one will be incredible. I am ready to go to the hospital in a few days to get the keys to deal with my eating disorder, ready to push myself to enjoy life, ready to start living my adult life as soon as I’ll be done with master degree in a few months and to simply be happy.
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We all love this feeling when we are leaving the office or our last class on a Friday evening, excited to go home and to be free for two whole days. I am not an exception: I love weekends, and I’m always trying to make the most of it. So today I thought I’ll share some hapiness with you by discusting what are my favourite things to do on a weekend!
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