“October extinguished itself in a rush of howling winds and driving rain and November arrived, cold as frozen iron, with hard frosts every morning and icy drafts that bit at exposed hands and faces.”
― J.K. Rowling,
October came and went by quickly and slowly at the same time. As it is my favourite month of the year, I was waiting for many things during it. It was my birthday, my best friend’s birthday, Halloween and I had a concert. I felt as if I was constantly waiting for something but at the same time everything happened too fast. However, for once, I made out the best of every day. My birthday was the best one I had so far, even though it had been disappointing for a part, and I had a lot of fun for Halloween.
October was still a hard month for me. My mental health has been at its worse and I kept feeling bad. I didn’t know what to do and let the sadness consumed me without realising it. I also went to the doctor and the whole thing made me feel both good and bad. I am not gonna lie – it was hard. But I made it and I can say that today I am working on getting better.
Because I felt so bad this month, I feel as if I read nothing. It’s a really strange feeling but I can’t see myself reading during October. I know I did since I remember all the books that I read but I can’t remember exactly when nor where, which is very unusual for me who has a way too big memory. In the end, I read 10 books but do not feel proud of this reading month.
Here’s what I read during October:
- They Both Die at the End by Adam Silvera, 4/5 stars
- Dracula by Bram Stoker, 5/5 stars (reread)
- Great Expectations by Charles Dickens, 5/5 stars
- Two on a Tower by Thomas Hardy, 5/5 stars
- Obsidian by Jennifer L. Armentrout, 4/5 stars
- Lady Midnight by Cassandra Clare, 5/5 stars (reread)
- Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire, 5/5 stars (reread)
- Destroy Me by Tahereh Mafi, 3.5/ stars
- Onyx by Jennifer L. Armentrout, 4/5 stars
- Sleepy Hollows and other short stories by Washington Irving, 3/5 stars
My favourite book of the month, if we forget about all the ones I re-read, is Great Expectations by Charles Dickens. He is one of my favourite authors and he do not seems to let me down – every time I read something new by him, I fall in love a little more.
- Stranger Things 2
We waited more than a year for this second season, and boy oh boy did they not disappointed us.
I watched the first season when it first came out and fell in love with it – all those retro vibes got me and I watched the whole thing in two days, which does not happen a lot for me. It has been my favourite tv show every since (along with That ’70s Show) but since it had only been one season I was afraid that we will be left out afterwards. Well, I was wrong.
The second season was just as good, maybe even better, and blew my mind. It got me hooked from the very first seconds and though I couldn’t binge watching it this time I still watched every episodes quite quickly. Noah Schnapp completly stole the screen in this season and his performance was incredible and breathtaking. Well, every actor casted was, as usual, incredible. They got me crying at every episode, which is something.
This tv show really is the best and it truly deserves all the hype.
tw// suicide, violence
Another tv show that I watched really quickly and that I started thanks to my very good friend Lucie who has been raving about it for months now! This Marvel tv show is mindblowing and extremely intelligent. I am so sad to see that not so many people are talking about it but it will still get a second season which is exciting!
- My friends
That may sounds cheesy but I have the best friends in the entire world and they made this month, once again, magical. I do no have much to say but thought it was important for me to include them in my favourites since they are bringing me so much every day, and especially during October when I felt so bad.
I am happy to say that today I am only surrounded by safe, nice, tolerant and understanding people who make me feel love every single day.
This may seems stupid, but Autumn made me feel extremely good once again. It is my favourite season and it may not be over yet but it is really cold in Paris right now and it feels more like Winter.
So, thank you Autumn for all those leaves on the ground, for those beautiful grey afternoons and all the Pumpkin Spice Lattes. You have been the best – as always.
MY GOALS FOR NOVEMBER
- Write every day
That was my goal last month and it still is for this one. With #NaNoWriMo, I have already started writing every day and am very proud of myself. I finished the first part of my novel and writing finally became exciting again. I cannot wait to see how much I will be able to write and if I will succeed in writing 50k words.
- Start walking every Saturday
I used to do it when I was a little younger but I really need to get back at it. With the cold air, walking around will be a pleasure and will make me feel, hopefully, better about myself.
- Get healthier
During October, we discovered that I was suffering from an eating disorder which makes me eat a lot without realising it. For this month, I am trying to eat less, at least not between lunches, and to eat better. I am also trying to take stairs instead of elevators. Since I don’t have the time to properly workout, I thought that doing small changes in my life may be easier for me and do the trick.
- Prepare myself for Christmas
Last year, I totally forgot about Christmas and let it happened way too fast without enjoying it. This year, I intend on making everyday special and Christmass-y. It has always been an important holiday for me and I won’t let it go so quickly again. It is time to listen to Christmas songs all day long again!
- Get better
The most important one. It is something that I already started and that is already working. I am trying to be more positive, confident, nice – and I do feel better today. Hopefully this will continue until I’m fully happy again.
I will now try to enjoy as much as I can those last two months of the year. This year went too fast but I did so much, grew up a lot and became someone better. I am proud of all I achieved in such a short amount time and will do my best to do even better this November.
I wish you all to have a beautiful month and to keep being your amazing selves.