“Autumn seemed to arrive suddenly that year. The morning of the first September was crisp and golden as an apple.”
― J.K. Rowling,
I feel as if September lasted way too long― my anxiety was at its worst, I had several financial problems, something happened at my job which made me feel extremly bad and going back to university reminded me that it was my last year and that I was basically about to play my whole future. In a few words, let’s say that September didn’t go so well.
Despite the fact that I went back to university and started working again, I still managed to read 11 books. This seems good but somehow I am disappointed with myself― I know I could have done better and read way more. Now that I go to a university next to my house, I am lacking of time to read in the subway and even though I only go there on Thursdays and Fridays, that means that I don’t read at all during those two days. Plus, I’m usually really busy during the weekends and I can’t read more than 50 pages in four days. Four days. This is why I could have done so much better.
Nevermind, here is the list of all the books I read during September:
- Ultimate Sacrifice by S.E. Green, 3/5 stars (this e-arc was sent to me by the publisher, my review will be up on Goodreads on its release day)
- A Study in Scarlet by Sir Arthur Conan Doyle, 4.5/5 stars
- Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde by Robert Louis Stevenson, 4/5 stars
- Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban by J.K. Rowling, 5/5 stars (reread)
- Nos Âmes Tourmentées by Morgane Moncomble, 5/5 stars (Wattpad fiction)
- Viens, on s’aime by Morgane Moncomble, 5/5 stars
- Dragonfly in Amber by Diana Gabaldon, 5/5 stars
- The Secret History by Donna Tartt, 5/5 stars
- Till Death by Jennifer L. Armentrout, 5/5 stars
- Our Dark Duet by V.E. Schwab, 4.5/5 stars
- Emma by Jane Austen, 5/5 stars
I am still happy because most of those books were quite big, such as Dragonfly in Amber and The Secret History, which made me think that we maybe shouldn’t count how many books we read during the month but the number of pages we read.
Anyhow, my favourite book of the month definitely was The Secret History for which I wrote a review (you can find it both on Goodreads and my blog). I highly recommend you to start this book without knowing what it’s all about, which makes the experience even more amazing. All I can say is that this book was simply incredible and brilliant.
- That ’70s show
I started watching this tv show on Netflix when I was on vacations because I needed a new tv show to watch before going to bed. Little did I know that it was going to take over my life― I now care about every one of the characters who I love dearly and more than anything. I am so sad to see that I only have two seasons left before being done with it― I will miss them all so much but I know that I will rewatch it times and times again.
- Les Misérables
At the end of September, my friend Lucie came to my house and made me watch Les Misérables, the movie adaptation of one of my favourite musicals and books. Well, let’s just say that I can’t stop listening to it now and that it made me want to reread the book a lot. I first read it when I was a child and I’m excited to see how I will understand it this time, now that I am 21 years old.
It’s in September that I started writing again like I used to do when I was younger. More than anything, it made me feel good― as I said, this month was hard but being able to forget everything for a few hours and being in my own world helped me a lot. This is also why I started this blog all over again, because I want to write everyday and keep practicing no matter what. I now promise that I will never stop writing ever again.
During September, Franziska has been my biggest inspiration. Her cosy and clean feed made me feel good and helped me when I was lacking of motivation to take pictures. I also started to talk to her and met an adorable and talented young person who is extremly brave and intelligent. I highly recommend her bookstagram account and blog to anyone.
My goals for October
- Write more
Of course, this is my main goal. As I said, writing made me feel so good during September and since I am hoping on finally doing NaNoWriMo right this year, October will be my training month― to do so, I’ll write everyday and will keep working on my novel by putting myself different goals every week. Hopefully this will all work out.
- Catch up on my tv shows
If you don’t know this about me, I can’t really watch tv, a movie or a tv show without getting bored pretty easily. I can’t stand still very long and even though I love all the tv shows that I am currently watching, I somehow took the habit to not watch them every week. That is why I now have tons of episodes to catch up, so I can start the new seasons with everyone else. If everything goes well, I should succeed this goal.
Ah, working out. Something that I have never done in my life. Well, it is time to change that. Since I keep complaining about my weight and the way I look, I decided to start exercicing by doing some work outs at home and maybe by running every Saturday― I’m saying maybe because I can’t seem to find time. Anyhow, I am working out with a friend and it makes it easier. I hope that I will follow the schedule and won’t give up.
- Read more classics
During September, I realised that I was growing out of YA and actually needed more and more classics in my life. For this month, I decided to let my love for classic literature shines― it also is #Victober this month so it’s a perfect excuse to read more Victorian literature.
- Take care of my diabetes
This is totally personal but it feels right for me to put it here.
I am diabetic but never really cared about it and always did nothing about it, which is pretty bad. This month, I want to prove myself that I can take care of it and myself and act like an adult about it.
- Enjoy the autumn
This may seem pretty stupid but it may be one of my biggest goals for October. Last year, I let my anxiety eat me up and didn’t enjoy at all Autumn, Halloween, Winter and Christmas, which made me very sad. This year, I intend on doing something related to Autumn every day until the end of the season and will do something Christmassy every day until January after that. There’s no way I will let them go so fast once again.
It is now time to enjoy my favourite month of the year, October. My birthday is coming, along with Halloween, and Autumn is finally here. I can wear sweaters and turtle necks again, drink PSL at Starbucks every morning, watch the leaves fall during class and read in the train while it’s raining outside. I promise to fight everyday against my cyclothymia and anxiety to let myself be fully happy and truly enjoy this month.
I wish you all to have a beautiful month and to keep being your amazing selves.